|Posted by nextstepministrieslv on March 28, 2011 at 11:27 AM|
I didn’t tell very many people that my wife was pregnant due to complications with the pregnancy, and this morning we found out from the doctor that the baby died. Those of you who knew we thank you for your prayers and support. We don’t write this as a plea for sympathy, but to update you on the status of the pregnancy and to edify you through our personal testimony of the sovereignty of God.
We find our comfort knowing that God is both good and sovereign and that He did not merely see into the future that this would happen but that He actually foreordained/caused our child to die in the womb. It is God who actively knits a baby together in his mother’s womb (Psalm 139:13) and it is He who gives life and it is He who has every right to take it away, still He is good (Job 1:21). We know that death is the direct result of sin (Genesis 2:17, Romans 5:12) and that our baby could not have died if he did not have a sin nature (Psalm 51:5). My wife and I both affirm that we all deserved to die in the womb and that we all deserve Hell for our personal rebellion against God (our own sin) and our inherited rebellion against God (Adam’s sin), and anything less than that is God’s mercy, love and grace. Not only did God allow us to live up until this point, but He also sacrificed the Son of God in our place for our sins and gave us His infinite righteousness as a free gift by our faith (Ephesians 2:8) so that we will have eternal life and not experience God’s wrath in Hell!
Although the Bible is silent as to whether all babies who die go to heaven, we know that God chooses at least some to, like King David said when his child died, “I shall go to him, but he will not return to me” (2 Samuel 12:23). Whether God has chosen to apply Christ’s blood to our baby because of his ignorance of the Gospel, or whether He has chosen to mold our child as a “vessel of wrath prepared for destruction” (Romans 9:22), still “blessed be the name of the Lord!” We believe that whatever God chooses to do with our baby’s soul it is the most righteous judgment: “Shall not the Judge of all the earth do what is just?” (Genesis 18:25). Through this we better understand God’s mercy toward us as guilty sinners, and even His mercy that this miscarriage wasn’t as bad as it could have been. Please keep my wife and I in your prayers as we grieve the loss of our child and pray that He will see it fit to give us more children like He gave Solomon to David (2 Samuel 12:24).